Today not only starts a new month but it also brings along the fact that it is the last month of the year. As I was scrolling Facebook for a few quiet minutes this morning, I realized a few things. First, that today is December. Second, I haven’t posted in a few days. Thirdly, while recalling my last few days, I realize why I haven’t. Today I am going to take a moment to reflect on what December means to me and a few steps I am going to take to make it a December To Remember.
Depending on how well you know me, you may or may not know that I was diagnosed with PCOS (Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome) back in 2003. While Bill and I were attempting to understand why I was unable to conceive, several doctor appointments later determined this diagnosis. Without boring you with medical details, one side effect specifically I was diagnosed with is Insulin Resistance. After my own research and living this out for almost 15 years now, I can say I understand how Insulin directly effects the other hormones in your body which then can cause infertility.
Connor was a miracle. Besides being placed on medication to bring my hormone levels under control, we were subsequently diagnosed with infertility issues from the male perspective. Bill and I were told that we were ‘unable to have children’ on our own. Fast forward less than a year and we were pregnant with Connor by July 2004. I am skipping ALOT of details but, God performed the miracle of Connor.
I am reflecting on all this today because this week I was ‘re-diagnosed’ with Insulin Resistance. Under the suggestion of my GYN back in March, I went off the medication. There was a thought that my blood work had been very good during my pregnancies and he would like a 3 month, non medicated, timeframe to re-draw blood. This took some time to ultimately happen because shortly after this appointment I had an appendicitis. Ultimately I agreed and started the de-medication process in late April. I personally was thinking, Why yes! I’d love to be medication free and am in agreement for my healing! I was believing this process and new blood draw would ‘prove’ my healing.
But in my gut I had a feeling things weren’t ok. There were certain ways I was feeling physically and the in my face fact that weight loss was simply not happening regardless of my healthy eating and exercise habits. I woke up early one morning in the beginning of November, just a few weeks ago. I clearly heard the Holy Spirit tell me this…Get your Insulin checked, you have Insulin Resistance, you need to be back on medication. (I know, I know, this may seem crazy that the Holy Spirit talks to me this way, but it’s how I communicate with the Holy Trinity.)
As I started the regimen of medication this week, again, my body has been in torment. I feel sick, irritable, tired, and like a roller coaster. I recognize that my hormone levels have been nuts and as they attempt to regulate with the medication, I was headed on a dangerous path. If my insulin wouldn’t have been put under control, it would have effected other areas of my body including turning into Diabetes. Then I stop to say ask this question in amazement…How loving is Our Father to send His Holy Spirit to tell me to get checked?!?
Often times as Christians we can snub our noses at Doctors or medication. I personally have found myself in that place. But with time and wisdom I can firmly say that God placed them here on Earth for our provision until either Earthly healing is obtained or Heavenly healing is obtained. So for now, I wait. I obey. I will treat my body how God intended it.
So how does this wrap up into a December to Remember – Finding Joy? Bottom line, I refuse to let this crazy havoc that has been placed in my body overarch my December! Today I decree and declare my healing and victory over PCOS. I believe my hormones will go back to their correct levels and that my body, mind and spirit will follow!
So I ask you these questions…What does December mean to you? What declarations can you make for this month that will help you finish this year out as God intended?
Whatever your answer, I come in agreement with you today! The best part about the word JOY is that it is regardless of physical surroundings or tangible items, it truly is internal and from God. This means we can find Joy in all circumstances, if we choose.
16 Always be joyful. 17 Never stop praying. 18 Be thankful in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you who belong to Christ Jesus. 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18
I am believing for a December that will knock our socks off. A month of Joy and memory making moments. I believe the story of Jesus’ birth will come alive in a new way to our heart and we can be the light for those around us. Thank you God for sending your Son so we can live in Freedom!
December Blessings to you, Heida
Did someone say, Another Giveaway?!? Well, I figured since the last giveaway blog was such a hit, Brave Beauty – A Book Giveaway For A Brave Beauty, that we should do another! So I am excited to say that today we will take a look inside Faithgirlz Backpack Bible.
*Stay tuned to the end for details on how to be entered to win ONE new copy of Faithgirlz Backpack Bible!!*
Faithgirlz Backpack Bible is an NIV compact Bible and is published by Zondervan. This Bible is geared for young girls, ages 8-12 and grades 3-7. It is beautifully covered with a fun pink imitation leather and is super soft. It also features a lay-flat binding so that when opened it literally lays open rather than flipping shut! If you are like me, this is a simple but wonderful feature as I’m prone to loose my page!
Being a parent myself, I recognize how having a compact Bible for school, church and bible studies is imperative to toss in any backpack. Especially as a younger girl who tend to carry lots of other goodies, having something compact makes it more likely to be used on the go! And what girl wouldn’t want a Bible that speaks right to her heart with a splash of pink! The outside cover is adorned with a simple statement:
Follow Your Heart
To make the Bible even more special, it features a twelve page section titled “Beauty of Believing!”. These sections are broken into three parts – Introduction, Old Testament, and New Testament. My favorite excerpt is found in the Introduction. It says this:
The Faithgirlz Promise
I promise to always…
- Focus on my inner beauty.
- Remember that God loves me always.
- Love myself the way God made me.
- Look at others’ gifts without jealousy.
- Treat other people the ay I want to be treated.
- Love my neighbor.
- Forgive others when they sin against me.
- Love my enemies.
- Seek God’s will in all that I do.
- Focus on the inner beauty of others.
Amen and Amen! What powerful words being spoken to our young girls and what momma wouldn’t love that?!?
Speaking about girls and mommas, I had the opportunity to get this Bible into one of my great momma friends hands, Zoe! She is blessed with two sweet girls, one of them being Zyra who is 11 years old and just started 6th grade. As I presented Zoe with the Bible, I had no idea that Zyra was about to start a Bible study at her school and was in the market for a new compact Bible! Say what?!? Yes, that is how awesome God is! So of course, after a few weeks I asked Zyra for her feedback and she was thrilled to tell me her opinion! Here are some of her thoughts:
What I liked about the new Follow Your Heart Bible was this it gives tiny life lessons like how to show other people your faith. I liked it because it is not King James version but NIV, and I think it really suits teens… Overall, I would say this Bible is a 10 out of 10 and would recommend it. It is little enough to fit in your purse or your book bag so you can take it everywhere with you and even your school Bible study. And if you don’t have a school Bible study, make your own!
Here is a picture of Zyra packing up her bag for school! And don’t you love her encouragement to make your own Bible study? She is such a sweet heart!
As with my most recent blog and giveaway, I will say the same thing…what a perfect time of year as we approach the gift giving season to have a giveaway! I would love for you to win, but if you don’t, jump over to Amazon or your local store and pick up a copy for a young girl!
To enter the giveaway please follow these steps:
- Like the post on Facebook
- Share post on Facebook
- Subscribe to my website
Easy peasy! One of my little guys will draw a winner on Tuesday 10/31/2017 and I will announce on Facebook!
Lastly, thanks again to The Blythe Daniel Agency for this amazing opportunity!
Overwhelmed, frustrated, and ready to throw the towel in… ever felt that way?
Today my youngest little one grabbed my too close for comfort cup of iced coffee. You can guess the rest. The unfortunate part is that it was sitting right next to my phone and laptop. One survived, one did not. My laptop bit the dust today.
As a mom I constantly second guess myself, blame myself, correct myself… I really don’t need others to tell me what I’ve done wrong, I have it pretty well covered. The problem here is that the enemy gets in here too. So subtly he nudges his way into my already bad self talk and makes it worse.
Having engaged in 2 back to back pregnancies, it’s been tough. Today I want to focus on that trash talk. Yeah, the gunk no one really wants to say out loud because most of what we say to ourselves we would not say out loud to our enemy. I contribute a lot to Post Partum Depression but just the fact of being a new mom again to two little guys is simply not easy. You are tired, irritable, plans don’t go as planned, you find yourself backing out of commitments because it’s simply overwhelming to get out of the house.
Now enter me running away. After the ordeal with the laptop, literally as it drained in the kitchen sink, my amazing husband attempted four times to repair it with no avail. I finally reached my ‘Don’t touch this button’ button. Tim graciously looked at me and said ‘honey, I think you need to take a break’. In my not so mild voice I said ‘there’s no where in this house to take a break!!’. He simply replied with ‘get your keys and drive’.
That’s what I did, grabbed my keys and wallet. No shoes, no phone, no rest of my purse, no destination. I wound up sitting for awhile at our nearby lake. Here’s the thing, I’ve contemplated many times ‘running away’. When life gets just too tough, I want to grab my stuff and go! But God has showed me over time that really I’m just in need of running to Him. I’ve somehow managed to get myself jammed up with all this bad self talk, questioning my purpose, the ultimate identity crisis and for goodness sakes my computer is trash. BUT only He can soothe away my fears and replace His loving thoughts.
You have made known to me the paths of life; you will fill me with joy in your presence. Acts 2:28
Today, friend, I pray that if you desire to ‘run away’ that you sneak to a place to run into His presence. His presence will fill your love tank beyond full so you can keep chugging along on your journey. And, you guessed it, only God knew that my older laptop was in perfect condition to fill the gap.
Ever had that nudging feeling that God is calling you to something greater? Something bigger than you? That thing you try to shake but won’t be shaken. Yeah, that… well that’s been me for about 4 years now. God has called me to write. Huh, I know!! (more…)